There's a sense of relief which comes from closure. I really can't explain it more than that. While I am sad that things did not work out the way that I desired, the friendship survives which is the most important thing. I think that's the most comforting thing about all of this -- to know that I didn't lose a friend.
When I got into the accident, it gave me a lot of time to think, and it made me re-prioritize the things in my life. It made me realize that each day is a blessing, and that each experience we survive is an experience we can learn from. Some of the time we do not learn the lesson right away, but the meaning is revealed in time.
The other important lesson is that life is too short. It can end at any moment and it's best not to leave unfinished business and unsaid things. You have to be able to move on, because living in the past is not truly living. It took me a long time to truly understand what that meant.
Somewhere out there is someone who will love me for who I am, and I will find you someday. Maybe we'll just meet and everything will click together, like two halves of a whole. I need to keep searching for you. Maybe I'll meet you tomorrow, maybe I won't meet you for years, but I know you're out there somewhere looking for me as I look for you.
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